In case you can't tell, I often feel like I have a time management problem. In that my problem is there often seems to be no time. Or there seems to be too much time. I feel like that's the weirdest dichotomy of my life right now - so often there is so much to do and no time in which to do it. And other times, like when A takes a randomly long nap, I don't quite know what to do with myself when I've actually managed to feel caught up on everything.*
I think that part of what I'm feeling also is that I don't know what to do with this space. I want to write about what's going on with my life, but right now my life is A. And also job hunting. But job hunting sucks and who really wants to read about that? But I'm also not sure how much people want to read about taking care of a baby. Even if she is the cutest baby in the world.**
But more than that, this feeling of confusion about what to do here sort of mimics what I'm feeling in my real life. I love (love love love) being home with A right now (which I honestly wasn't expecting! This has actually been really nice to learn). But I also love working outside the home. And bringing home an income. Especially with the amount of medical bills and law school loans that B and I have. Those aren't going to pay themselves (gee, wouldn't that be nice?). And while we are doing fine on B's salary, with all of those other expenses it's really hard to feel like we're making any real progress on our savings goals for the future.
So yeah. I'm still trying to figure it out. Not sure if anyone other than my mom and sister are still reading, but hopefully someday I'll figure out a bit better what I'm doing here...
And until then, here's the cutest baby in the world practicing sitting up! She sits now!!
Look Ma, no hands!
*Sidenote - Not that I EVER really feel caught up on everything. Just, uh, at some point you call it good.
**Sure, I'm clearly biased, but also she IS the cutest baby in the world.