Do you watch Biggest Loser? I'm watching this week's episode and (spoiler alert) the contestants staged a mutiny and decided that they didn't want to play anymore because the show kept throwing twists at them. In this instance, the twist was that an eliminated player was going to have the opportunity to come back to the ranch and compete for a spot in the finals.
First off, hello? Have any of these players ever watched the show? They do that every year. I'm pretty sure that's how Ali won (right? Wasn't she an eliminated player who came back and earned a chance to come back to the ranch?). And two, even if they haven't watched the show before, presumably they know how to read contracts that they sign. And in the agreement that they all signed (including all of the eliminated contestants), it specifically stated that the eliminated contestants would have an opportunity to come back. I'll admit, I kind of enjoyed watching the attorney explain that and then ask the contestants exactly why they were so shocked about this twist. And no one could say anything beyond "It's not fair." Life is not fair. Get over it.
I find it a little bit interesting that I'm watching this show after the day that I just had. Nothing really bad happened, but I faced yet another disappointment. And I feel like I've faced so many disappointments big and small over the last couple of years that it all just hit me. And after nearly breaking down at work over it, I came home and could barely even talk to B. Which I hate. It's not his fault. It's not my fault. But it is our situation. And things have been tough and there's no end in sight. And that's the disappointment that I've been dealing with. And I don't know how to handle it anymore.
So while this was not the post that I had planned to write today, apparently it's the one that I needed to write. At some point I do want to have conversations here about careers and how people choose what they do, but I don't have it in me right now. Hopefully soon though.