Saturday, December 29, 2012

36 weeks

I hate to leave so long with such a bummer of a post as the last one that I wrote. So even though I'm 37 weeks tomorrow (full term! How did that happen??), here's a quick 36 week update for you.

As you can see, it's a different bathroom! We were at my parents house for Christmas, so I took the picture in their bathroom. Belly is feeling big. But otherwise, I'm still doing ok. Sure it's hard to bend over, and sure it's hard to get up if I sit down on the floor (or heck, even the couch half the time), but I know things could be plenty worse, so I'll take this!

We had an absolutely wonderful Christmas - first with B's family and then with mine. Everyone was so generous and baby is already so loved it's crazy. Plus we were gifted a few major things that we hadn't gotten yet (including our infant car seat and stroller!), which was really wonderful of our family to do for us.

The soon-to-be-Grandma helping Cody open one of his presents.

B opening one of many presents for the kiddo. Notice the teeny tiny Smartwool socks for the kiddo? Yeah, I couldn't resist those, given our history with those socks! Baby needed its own first pair.

We are now back home after two full weeks with family (a week with B's family in town and then we spent several days with my family). It was so absolutely wonderful to see everyone (and take my mind off of recent events...), but oh how I love sleeping in my own bed!

Otherwise not much else is new. I walk so very slow now (it's rather hilarious to go on walks with B and Cody - they'll end up 10 feet ahead of me without even trying because my walking pace is so slow now!). I've also been having plenty of Braxton Hicks contractions, but haven't felt any real contractions (that I know of), so I'm pretty sure baby is perfectly content to hang out for a little while longer. No tax baby for us! (Which is absolutely fine Baby, we've still got plenty to do!) I'm definitely in nesting mode now which is a bit entertaining to me (I have to remind myself to sit down every so often because my back gets so tight), but we'll get everything done and ready soon. I'm so excited to meet this kiddo and start to get to know him or her, but I'm also really looking forward to having a few weeks to rest and relax and prepare for baby's arrival. 

And let's be honest - I'm also looking forward to one last New Year's Eve without having to pay a babysitter! Happy New Year's all!

Thursday, December 20, 2012


I didn't really anticipate writing another post this week, and I certainly didn't anticipate the reason for the post that I'm writing today.

I got laid off yesterday.

I didn't see that one coming, I'll be honest.

Now, I knew that there were some problems and things weren't necessarily going in the direction that we had all planned on, but I thought that we at least had a few more months. Because really? Less than a week before Christmas? Also, not sure if you've noticed, but I'm almost 9 months pregnant. So, among other people getting laid off from my company is a 9 month pregnant lady, a week before Christmas.

And a Happy New Year to you, too!

Yesterday morning I was in a panic. Today I'm feeling better. It still sucks, but we'll be ok.

And also? I discovered that I have a lot of pretty awesome people in my corner out there. People who may not know me personally, or may not know me all that well, but were immediately willing to connect me to someone they knew who might know of a job, or just might be a good connection down the line. Or who were willing to pass my resume on to someone who might know someone. Who knows what may come of it, but it's really nice to know how many amazing people are out there and are willing to help someone who had a shitty day. To those of you who reached out - thank you so much. I appreciate it more than you know.

Sadly, I've been here before. I did graduate from law school into the worst recession since the Great Depression after all. But as B reminded me last night, we've always landed on our feet. And we've got a lot more things in the positive column this time than we did last time. Sure, we've also got the aforementioned baby on the way, but perhaps it's a good thing that I won't even have to pretend to think (or not think) about my job when the kiddo comes. And with how exhausted I've been lately, I'm not going to lie and say that the prospect of actually getting to take afternoon naps (as opposed to sitting at my desk wishing I could take an afternoon nap) doesn't thrill me a little bit.

I am hopeful that something better lies ahead. I don't know what that is yet, but I'm certainly on the watch for it. Christmas has always seemed like such a hopeful and happy time of year, and I'm determined to remain positive and enjoy this time with my family and friends. 

To all of you, I wish you a Merry Christmas if you celebrate it, and a very happy New Year. 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

35 weeks

I'll be honest, I've been doing my best to stay away from the news since Friday. I just... it's too hard and too real and I just cannot fathom any part of it. Plus I have no words to make any sense out of it, and so I retreat into myself and feel my baby kick and wish that I had the ability to protect it as well outside of myself as I can protect it now. I know that I can't, but still. I wish. (And god, all of the "I"s in that paragraph. It's not about me. At all. Believe me, I know that.)

It's been a long couple of weeks between being busy at work, being busy with taking care of things after work and having family in town for the last week. Plus the whole being 35 weeks pregnant thing. For the most part I'm actually still feeling well (and in case anyone cares, my rings are still on, my shoes still fit, and my belly button still has a weird scar but is definitely an innie), but I am just absolutely exhausted. I am amazed at how quickly the exhaustion has seemed to envelope me (and I also fully recognize that this is nothing compared to how I'll feel when sleep deprived with a newborn. I do know that. But that doesn't take away from how I'm feeling right now).

I keep talking to baby and reminding him or her to keep cooking away in there for a few more weeks. Luckily we're in a great spot with being prepared for baby. I think we've got a good plan of getting the last few things that we need and then it'll be the baby's turn to decide when to show up.

This is what me at 35 weeks looks like if you're interested. I'm glad that I've been taking these, but dear lord I feel like I look as exhausted as I feel. Just keeping it real apparently?

Also, I should note that I am taking some time off of work next week to be with family and friends during the holidays and I'm not sure how much I'll be around here. Hope you all enjoy the holidays however you celebrate!

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Dear Baby,

I am so, so excited to meet you and hold you and start to learn all about who you are! But I feel like I should make very clear that I would really appreciate if you waited to make your appearance until much closer to your due date. I've been so focused on thinking that you'll be here late that I haven't really taken the time to think about the fact that you could possibly come early at all.

At least not until I found out last night that one of the women in my birth class went into labor last week and had her baby at 35 weeks. Also, as an aside, I should mention that her water broke in a grocery store. I know that neither you nor I have any control over my water breaking, but Baby, I'd much prefer that happen at home or in the hospital, okay? You'll learn pretty quickly that your mom doesn't like to make a scene. And I'm pretty sure my water breaking in the frozen food aisle is the very definition of a scene. (Plus I'd really rather not end up as part of the facts section of a slip and fall case, m'kay?) As far as I know, mom and baby are doing fantastically well and are at home now, but Baby, please don't follow suit! There is no need to come that early, ok? I know you might think it'd be fun to come this weekend when so much of your extended family will already be in town, but don't worry, they'll come back to meet you, I promise!

Because Baby, while we have a lot of things all ready for your arrival, we're still missing some key elements. I know exactly when I'm going to get them and from where, but I need you to stay put for a bit longer. At the very least until after Christmas when you'll be 37 weeks and I'll feel a bit more at ease about you coming into the world. But really, it's perfectly ok for you to wait until your due date. I know that I'll be getting more and more uncomfortable and will probably start asking for you to go ahead and come out already, but it's ok. Take your time. We'll have a whole lifetime to get to know each other. This is on your timetable and not mine. Come when you're ready.

Just please don't be ready for another 3-6 weeks, ok?

Love you,
Your Mom

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

34 weeks

I feel like the last few weeks have been some of the fastest to go by this entire pregnancy. And I'm pretty sure I start each post with some variation of where has the time gone, but seriously! Where has the time gone?? In 2 1/2 weeks I will be 37 weeks which means that if baby decides it wants out, no one will stop it! I keep telling myself that I'll give birth past my due date, but now I'm starting to wonder if I've gone too far with that mentality because there's NO way that we're going to have everything ready in the next 2 1/2 weeks! I mean, we still don't have an infant car seat and stroller yet (we do have a convertible car seat, so if baby decided to come we have a way to get him/her home. But I'm still planning to get an infant car seat for the first few months). 

But we also need things like crib sheets. And a couple of bottles would be nice. We're pretty much set on most things (and I did a bunch of baby-related-stuff laundry over the weekend so all of that's done), but I'd like to get a few more footie sleepers, plus some long sleeve onesies (we have a ton of onesies but they're all short sleeves, and I imagine a child born in January might need a few with long sleeves. Just a guess though). And while we spent a bunch of time organizing baby's room over the weekend, there's still more to be done. Because right now the crib is full of stuff that is not allowed to be there when the baby comes! (Pretty sure having the infant tub and sharp cornered pictures frames in the crib is not on anybody's list of approved items!)

I was excited to find a used boppy pillow and moby wrap off of Craigslist the other weekend, though. Much happier paying $10/each for those items than full price. And even though I sometimes freak myself out about baby preparedness, I know that we'll be fine (and as others keep telling me, stores stay open after the baby comes! What a concept! Plus Amazon Prime means never having to leave your couch). I think it's the combination of the holidays (my inlaws start coming into town tomorrow and will be here for the next week before it's Christmas Day when we'll be celebrating Christmas with my side of the family) and the fact that we're so busy doing everything else that I won't really get to focus on any more baby prep until practically January. On the other hand, if I wanted distractions to help speed up a few of these weeks as I get more and more uncomfortable, well then, I picked the best time of year to be this pregnant!

Speaking of being this pregnant - here's the 34 week belly picture. 

I know the kiddo is supposed to grow more between now and when it's born, but man. I already feel huge. Where is the kid going to go?

On the plus side, even though I walk ridiculously slowly (I swear it's physically impossible for me to go any quicker! But it does make it interesting to walk Cody with B, since they'll be trying to walk slowly with me and still end up 10 feet ahead of me), I haven't had any problems with swelling yet (knock on wood). All of my rings still fit and all of my shoes still fit (well, the 2 pairs of slip ons that I have which are the only ones that I will wear these days). I attribute that mostly to the ridiculous quantities of water that I've been drinking, but I'll take it. However, the unfortunate side effect is certainly the number of times I have to go to the bathroom... I'm definitely looking forward to when that is no longer the case!

Thursday, December 6, 2012

What I've been pondering

Ok, so this post is about something a bit ridiculous and I'm completely aware of that, I just wanted to let you in on that right from the beginning.

Specifically the ridiculous thing that I've been pondering is my belly button. 

Told ya. 

See, everyone told me when I got pregnant that the belly button was totally going to pop out like that automatic thermometer that comes with some turkeys (though which turkeys actually come with that I have no idea, since ours never comes with one and perhaps this is a myth that I am now perpetuating?). Anyway. I definitely thought that would be weird because I was fairly certain that wouldn't happen to me as I have what turns out to be a pretty deep belly button.

So far I am completely correct on this. No signs of belly button coming anywhere close to being anything but the innie that it always has been. It has gotten more ticklish and sensitive to the touch (but the rest of the belly hasn't really...), but that's about it.

But it's still weirding me out. Specifically the weird thing is due to having surgery last year to remove my gall bladder. That surgery was done laparoscopically wherein they make several very small incisions to put instruments in and take the gall bladder out. Much better for recovery than the larger incision that used to be standard. BUT, one of the incisions they made was inside my belly button. So now, while my belly button is still an innie, it has definitely been moving around a bit because that scar is now very visible on the outside of my belly button. Which is just plain weird to me. The other three scars from that surgery have never bugged me because they're straight across, small, and who cares? This one though is all kinds of funky, I think because a) it's probably not a super easy job to put in straight stitches on the inside of someone's belly button and b) it's the inside of someone's belly button! No one will ever see it!

No one except for everyone if that person gets knocked up. Weird I tell ya.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

33 weeks

This weekend we did this:

We also celebrated the little alien with good food, extremely generous friends, and some adorable handmade onesies and bibs:

Seriously, my baby shower was absolutely wonderful. I plan to write a post with additional pictures as soon as I get more pictures together (though I'm not sure how many actually turned out unfortunately). This was an event where I tried to be more present instead of thinking about documenting the moments, the only downside of which is that I forgot to get a picture with the wonderful hostesses! Ah well... 

And I currently look like this (33 weeks):

As compared to last week when I looked like this:

I take the pictures at about the same time in the morning each week, so I'm not really sure why the color is so off from week to week. I could probably edit that. I could probably do a lot of things.

Maybe it's just because I'm standing a bit differently, but it feels like the belly dropped a bit there. Or maybe it just got bigger. I'm starting to get curious about when baby is actually going to show up... I'm also getting a bit nervous about how busy the next few weeks are going to be (we have plans every day after work next week, including B's family coming into town to celebrate early Christmas, and then Christmas with my family and then New Year's and then January. Wow). I'm excited about everything that we're doing, but I'm also very aware of my energy levels (or lack thereof) and knowing that exhausting myself won't help anything (and could potentially lead to issues with the little alien which I do not want!). So I need to remember to take it easy. Which, ha, yeah, is totally something that I do well!

So, as a little plea to the alien currently kicking the crap out of my ribs, please please please stay in there until after Christmas! I would prefer you stay in until at least the middle of January, but I can handle you coming after 37 weeks. Just no sooner, ok? 

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

32 weeks - it's getting real

Sunday marked 32 weeks of this pregnancy. Or as one of my apps helpfully reminds me, I have now been pregnant for 224 days. That's a lot of days.

And that's a lot of belly. Whoa. It looked smaller on my phone.

I'm still feeling generally ok. There's a bit more reflux happening (especially when I bend over, though that's becoming a rarer occurrence these days!). And the noises are getting louder when I put on my socks. And my hips are starting to hurt a bit when I spend too long in one position at night (which is generally not a problem as my bladder usually forces me up long before my hips start complaining). 

My newest issue is that it appears that my dog and my unborn child are now conspiring together to keep me from sleeping. Perhaps the dog is rebelling against the fact that we left him alone to go back to work yesterday after spending four full days with him over Thanksgiving? I have no idea, but whatever it is, the boy decided to insist at 2am, then 3am, and then 4am very loudly that he should be allowed on the bed. Since I found out that I was pregnant we've been teaching him that he's not allowed on the bed until 5 or 5:30 at the earliest for some cuddle time before we get up for the day because as I get bigger there's just not room for my belly and the dog. Plus I'm fairly confident that we aren't going to want the dog in the bed all night long once the baby is actually here. So. We're working on it. And it's been fairly successful. Until he got sick the other week (and I'm a total sucker when he's sick. I admit it). And then we were at my parents and he slept on the bed all night at their house. And now we're back to reminding him he doesn't have that privilege anymore. 

So I was doing my sleepy best to get him to go lie down on his dog bed and he was doing his best to be all sad and pathetic looking and have me let him up. At one point instead of going to his own bed he decided that lying down with his head under the bed, pouting and sighing heavily was going to get him his way. It did not. Until he came back at 4:30am (after I'd been awake since 4 at that point because my darling unborn child was tap dancing on my ribs) and I couldn't take it anymore. So I let him up on the bed and surfed twitter for awhile. Fun times I tell you. Except that now I feel like I'm going to fall asleep at my desk (curse of the open floor plan office - no door to shut for a quick catnap!). Perhaps I should thank Cody for helping me get ready to be a mom to a newborn, but instead I'm cursing him for making the last weeks of sleep less restful than they should be!

Also I keep saying in my head that it'll be at least 8 more weeks (or longer!) until baby comes, but after talking to a friend last night, I realized that there's only 5 more weeks until I'm at 37 weeks (full term!). Which seriously blows my mind. I could potentially have a child starting any time after Christmas. That's just crazy.

Monday, November 26, 2012

A Very Happy Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays. And I've been lucky in that most places I've worked I've had the Friday after Thanksgiving off as well as Thanksgiving Day (or I've just taken it off) which means that I'm very used to having a four day weekend. And I love that the actual holiday is at the beginning of the break so I spend the week leading up to Thursday all excited and then I still have three full days to enjoy doing whatever it is I want to enjoy (this year - a lot of napping and eating leftovers and watching football). Christmas is a close second, but there always seems to be other stress surrounding the holiday which isn't present at Thanksgiving.

Sunrise on Thanksgiving morning from my parents house.

Plus, I've decided that the absolute best part about now living closer to my parents is that we can go spend a couple of nights with them and still get two full days of vegging out time on my own couch. Yes, I am very thankful for my couch in case you couldn't tell!

My contribution to dinner this year was a caramel apple pie (recipe found here) and it was delicious! I was a bit worried about how it was going to turn out, but luckily everyone loved it! Mom says I might have to make one every year (oh darn...). Actually, I might make another one sooner rather than later as we ended up with an extra batch of caramel sauce (let's just say I tried to be ahead of the game by making the sauce at home before going to my parents, and then promptly forgot it in my fridge. Whoops).

Mom's the head Thanksgiving chef-in-charge-of-yummy-goodness for our family meal while I keep her company (and attempt to help wherever I can). The stuffing is my absolute favorite (Grandma's recipe!) and her turkey came out so delicious this year! Plus, since we ended up with only five of us for dinner that meant there were a lot of my other favorite part of Thanksgiving - leftovers!

And is it really Thanksgiving without a picture of the dog begging for turkey?

Though because of a recent bout of not-feeling-well-itis, no turkey scraps for Cody!

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and were able to spend it however you wanted - whether with family or friends or at a movie or scoping out the best deals for Black Friday (better you than me - you couldn't pay me to deal with Black Friday crowds!). Now that we're heading into December, I'm trying to soak up this last holiday season as a family of two with B before our lives change so much when this little one decides to make his or her debut. 

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


I've been trying to remember and for the life of me I cannot remember a Thanksgiving that I didn't spend with my parents. I also can't remember a Christmas that I didn't spend with my family in my own home, but that's another story for another day.

Thanksgiving to me means spending time with my family. Specifically I mean with my parents and siblings, but there have been years when I was the only child who was able to make it home. More often however, there are lots of others celebrating with us (siblings, aunts and uncles, cousins, friends, students of my dad, etc) which just makes the day more festive. And really, with all of the delicious food and plenty of wine, how could the day be anything but fun? (I realize I'm fairly lucky that I'm 31 years old and can't remember a drama filled day.)

Part of the reason I've always had Thanksgiving with my family is because where I went to college we had the whole week of Thanksgiving off (which was awesome). They actually shut the dorms and made everyone leave ("you don't have to go home, but you can't stay here!"), and since I was only a 4 hour drive from home, why else wouldn't I go home? In law school I was about 5 hours away, and while I could have stayed and spent the day with friends, it had usually been awhile since I'd seen my parents and it was nice to go home for a break (even if I did spend the majority of the three days I was home during my 1L year writing outlines and cramming for finals in a coffee shop).

B hasn't quite had the family connection to Thanksgiving that I have, and in fact for many years this was very much a friend holiday for him. He and whichever of his friends were around would cook a big dinner and spend time relaxing with each other. Luckily he likes my family a lot and is more than happy to spend Turkey Day with them, though he does still find it strange not to be the one making the bulk of the meal (my mom does that - I help where I can and usually make a pie. Also I am Chief Taste Tester of all that comes out of the kitchen. Between that and watching football with my dad, it really is a most excellent day). 

I'm hopeful that perhaps next Thanksgiving we'll be in a position to host my family so that my mom doesn't have to do as much. I'm pretty sure she'd be plenty happy to spend the day playing with our kiddo while B and I make dinner (what, clearly I'm not going to do it myself!). But this year I'm going to enjoy all of her cooking (especially the stuffing - it's my grandmother's recipe and it's SO GOOD) and pretend not to notice all of the excellent wine that everyone else is drinking. Me and my sparkling cider totally aren't jealous (and yes, I phrased that exactly how I intended).

Hope you all have a wonderful day however you choose to spend it!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Getting through

It's been a long week and it's only Thursday. It doesn't really help that I've spent part of today listening to a CLE about immigration remedies for victims of domestic violence (why yes, my CLE reporting period does end at the end of this year!). Always uplifting stuff right there, let me tell you.

I just feel sort of down today, but I have no particular reason why. I mean, our hospital tour was great last night (the rooms are a lot bigger than either of us thought they'd be!), and the sun is shining which is always cause for celebration in Seattle in November. I think I'm just tired. That kind of tired when you've been working too long without a break and you just feel like you're in a rut. Luckily next week is a short week (thank goodness!), and I am very much looking forward to the downtime. I think I'm also just starting to get more tired during the day (apparently growing a baby will do that to you, who knew?), plus I haven't been sleeping all that well. And now Cody hasn't been feeling great which makes me all worried about him too (we're pretty sure he just pulled or strained a muscle in his back legs and he'll be ok with rest and recuperation. But he's still my baby and I worry!).

Anyway. All this to say I am very thankful that next week is Thanksgiving!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Playing Around

I was playing around with one of the apps I have that makes collages for Instagram (oh yeah, I'm on that now if anyone cares to follow - alongfarview over there... not really sure what I'm doing yet, but I'm really enjoying all of the baby pictures - turns out I follow a lot of new parents!), and decided to do a belly shot comparison. I haven't really looked at the pictures side by side much to see just how big the belly had gotten, and well, wow. Hello there 30 weeks!

The lighting and cropping aren't great since I was just playing around, but thought I'd share it anyway.

30 weeks seems like a big milestone to me for some reason... 10 more weeks to go, solidly in the third trimester, belly definitely large and in charge but not hugely uncomfortable yet (though I'm getting there...). Some of the not so nice side effects that I've been hearing about are starting to happen - reflux being the main one. It usually happens in the evening, and I feel like I shouldn't even complain since it's not that bad, but it's still annoying. And I wouldn't be shocked if it gets worse. 

I'm also still waiting to figure out exactly what my leave plans are going to be (I've sent a proposal to my boss and he's still thinking about it...), and I'm pretty sure we're going to get some news this week at work that may shake things up a bit. I'm not entirely certain how it all will affect me, but I'm definitely working on reminding myself that "If I can't change it, I can't worry about it." We'll see if that's actually enough to keep myself from worrying.

In other happier baby news, our hospital tour is tomorrow night and I'm so excited! Really looking forward to seeing exactly where we'll be when this kiddo of ours comes into the world (and all of the random stuff, like where to park and check in when we first show up). And my baby shower is coming up in just a couple of weeks and people are actually coming! (Am I the only one with the irrational fear that no one will show to these types of things? Just me? All right then. But really I'm just SO excited to spend some time with people who I really don't get to see often enough!) 

And have the holidays gotten here super quick for anyone else? I mean, Thanksgiving is next week! I'm super excited for the short week, but wow, the days are definitely flying by over here. 

Thursday, November 8, 2012

10(ish) weeks to go. Say what now?

Um, guys? Baby's due date is in roughly 10 1/2 weeks. I don't know if you're counting at all, but that's like 2 1/2 months away. And it could be less than that! That means that in just over 2 months time there's going to be a living, breathing, CRYING human being in my life! You know, separate from me! Uh, the hell? When did that happen??? Also, I'd like to point out that we're now just two weeks away from Thanksgiving, and then my baby shower, and then B's family is coming up to celebrate Christmas and then we're celebrating with my family, and then New Year's and then it's going to be January (aka baby eviction month) before I know it. Holy whoa.

So, here's my 29 week belly shot, only several days late because, well, no excuse. Just because. But it's not like I've actually been sticking to any sort of timetable for weekly updates. No, more it's fun to throw in shots of how the belly is taking over. Which it seriously feels like it's doing. Generally right now I feel pretty good up until about 2pm or so. Nothing really hurts, baby has its dance party moments and some sleepy time moments, I can get work done, all is well. And then, well, then 2pm hits and something shifts. Instead of fun dance parties I think baby gets pissed off at not having enough room and has to take it out on my uterus. I swear it's getting bruised in there. And then my back starts hurting and no matter how I adjust my chair and back pillow I can't find the position that was perfectly comfy just a couple of hours ago. 

And then I go home. Where after B and I walk the dog (who's had to get used to having us both out of the house all day long and therefore goes bat shit crazy excited when we get home), I try to relax on the couch, searching for the position where my back doesn't hurt, the belly doesn't feel weird and the reflux is most held at bay (spoiler alert: said position does not exist). God, this sounds delightful doesn't it? To all of my friends who haven't had kids, sorry 'bout that. Just think about all the alien belly strangeness you have to look forward to should you some day choose to have kids! (I am told it's all worth it though.)

Oh, also? Putting on my socks is starting to get hard, much to B's amusement. Luckily I wear Danskos every day to work so I haven't had to tie shoes in, oh, a couple months now? (also should tell you how long it's been since I wore a pair of sneakers... I have worked out since then but I do so barefoot in my living room. It works. Sort of.) I hear this only gets harder as the belly gets bigger. Awesome.

Back to the plus side though, so far things are trucking along pretty normally (I think). Even though I had some weird Braxton Hicks contractions last week and went home a bit early on Friday because they were hitting that 6 in an hour point that my midwives start paying more attention to, I appear to be back to normal now with the kid just shoving various body parts in my ribs. I'll take it. It is definitely odd trying to figure out what is "normal-weird" versus what is "bad-weird" and where precisely that line is when everything about this process is new and strange and constantly has me saying wtf is that?? 

Next week we have our hospital tour and I'm really looking forward to seeing exactly where this kiddo is going to be born. Also that marks the beginning of having our Centering Pregnancy class/appointments every 2 weeks rather than every 4! And other than the Centering classes that we're doing, we're only taking an Infant CPR class. I don't really feel the need to do any other classes given the research that we've both already done and the resources that we'll have available at the hospital (ie breastfeeding help). 

It's crazy both how fast and how slow time has seemed to have gone this pregnancy, and I know the last couple of months are going to fly by. So I'm trying to savor this time with B before we become a family of three as much as I can. I can't wait to see him as a dad, but right now he's being a pretty awesome husband and I'm so happy he's my partner in crime in all of this.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Election Day

I voted in my first presidential election in 2000. I was a 19 year old freshman in college and I remember being at dinner at the old Student Union Building with a friend when we first heard that Florida was being called for Al Gore. We were so excited. Then in the time that it took to get back to the dorm, we heard that the networks were taking it back and maybe it was going to be called for George Bush. And then... well, then no one really knew what was happening. After that I stayed up until nearly 3am trying to get some sort of clarity and then I woke up the next morning to learn that it would be days or weeks before we knew who our next president was going to be.

Since then I've voted in every election (including off cycle elections, though I admit, I did forget to send in my ballot for this latest primary. Whoops). I am proud of my right to vote, and believe that it is my duty as a citizen to exercise it. I don't always agree with the candidates, but I am pragmatic enough to know that one of them will be in charge and I'd like a say in picking who that person will be. Plus so often when people decide not to vote for president they just decide not to vote at all, missing the opportunity to effect change on a local level. For example, my state has a hotly contested governor's race this year (without anyone named Gregoire or Rossi on the ballot! Hallelujah!), along with several important initiatives, including granting same-sex couples the right to marry. Even if people decide not to vote for president, I do hope that they vote for these local elections and issues. 

I'm also very happy to live in a state that conducts its elections through mail-in ballots (where you can even check online to make sure your ballot was received and your signature verified!). By allowing people the time to vote at home when it is convenient for them and then providing the opportunity for people to either mail ballots back (which yes, does require a stamp) or drop them off at a designated location (which does not require a stamp), Washington has done a great job with raising voter turnout. Oregon has had mail in only elections since 1998, and I believe that Oregon's turnout is over 70% now, well above the 58% turnout nationally (I'll try to find time today to located sources to back up those statistics). Sure it means that since I've only ever voted in Oregon and Washington that I don't ever get an "I voted" sticker, or have tales about standing in line for hours at a time, but I also know that there is no reason for me not to vote and I truly only have myself to blame for not getting my ballot in on time.

I already know that I'm going to spend today being fairly anxious about how the polls are going to turn out. I do my best not to talk too much politics on here because even though this is my space, I respect that others have different beliefs than I do. And I respect that thoughtful adults can come to different conclusions on various issues, as well as how they prioritize those issues when a candidate doesn't represent them perfectly. However, I also don't think it's hard to guess who I voted for. To that end, I very much hope that President Obama wins reelection tonight, and I will be spending my evening watching the election results much as I did back in 2000. However, this time instead of being a 19 year old college student trying to figure out what her life might look like and hoping for a bright future, I'm a 31 year old attorney, married with my first baby on the way, now hoping for a bright future for my child. Amazing how things change and yet have the capacity to come full circle.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

On being pregnant

I thought I was prepared for everything my body might throw at me while pregnant. For example:

I was prepared to be sick during the first trimester. Luckily, I really didn't get much morning sickness at all (and what I did get was afternoon nausea - gotta love the 4pm sicky feeling). But I didn't throw up and I never had to take a sick day from work because of feeling terrible. So, bonus on being prepared for something that didn't really happen. I'll take it.

I was prepared for the cravings and food aversions. Well, sort of. I anticipated that there would probably be some foods that I really wanted and some foods that I really didn't want. But it was weird to see how strongly those would hit sometimes. Like the day that B made a most excellent steak salad and I loaded that up with all kinds of wonderful, healthy, yummy veggies (and steak!) and my body took one look at it and I swear started laughing at me. Like, you've got to be kidding if you think you're going to eat this. Nope, go get a bowl of cereal and then possibly a bagel, thank you very much.

I was prepared for the weight gain. I don't have to like it, and I'm trying to manage it so that I don't gain more than is recommended by my midwives, but I was still prepared for it. (And no, I'm certainly not depriving myself or the growing alien of food. Trust me! Said as I shove Tootsie Rolls in my mouth...)

There were plenty of other things that I was prepared for while this alien makes itself comfy for 9 months before it graces us with its presence. But there were two very specific things that I was not prepared for.

1. The non-stop, all the time, I just freaking went 10 minutes ago! peeing. Seriously. I have never in my life felt so ridiculous in my need to always know where a bathroom is. I've always tried to drink a lot of water (I keep a Nalgene on my desk and make sure to fill it up a couple of times a day at work), and I've been more conscious about staying hydrated while pregnant, but I've never had to pee this often. And especially as the kid grows bigger and moves around in the belly (and yes, uses my bladder as a trampoline), the bathroom breaks come more and more often. It's now gotten to the point where I don't even ask myself if I have to go when I'm leaving the office or the house to run an errand. It's just an automatic stop now. And of course this doesn't let up during the night, either, which brings me to the second thing I was not fully prepared for.

2. No more sleeping through the night. Ever, apparently, as it appears that this does not get better when the baby actually arrives. Damn. In all seriousness though, EVERYONE tells me to "sleep now before the baby comes!" I would LOVE to! And in my first trimester, by golly, I definitely made it my mission to sleep 12+ hours a night (you think I'm kidding... Ask B how many times I fell asleep at 8pm on the couch). But the past couple of months due to the growing belly and the apparently magically shrinking bladder, I'm up at least 4 times a night (if not more). What sucks the most is when I go to bed at 10:30 and my first wake up isn't even after midnight. Nope, often I'll wake up around 11:30 or 11:45. That's a lot of fun, let me tell you. 

So far it hasn't been too bad trying to get back to sleep during all of these wake ups (for which I am currently very, very grateful), but I wouldn't be surprised if that changes shortly. I mean, I'm only 28 weeks. I've still got (probably) 12 more weeks of this! Where I'm only getting bigger! And more uncomfortable! With a stronger tap dancer in there! So yeah. Again, very grateful that I don't (yet?) have many other issues that are keeping me awake (like heartburn or reflux or various aches and pains), but really I'm just waiting for those to show up. So how, exactly, am I supposed to be getting all of this wonderful precious sleep before the baby comes? I have no idea. But if you figure it out, feel free to clue me in.

And because I forgot to post it earlier: 28 weeks! Third trimester! Holy crap, things are getting real!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy Halloween!

I have seen so many adorable babies in costume pictures this week! I'm pretty sure there's not much cuter than baby Batman, baby lobster or baby caterpillar. Unless it's another baby costume. Love it! And seeing all of the pictures makes me so excited when I think about the 9 months old that I'll have to dress up this time next year. I am all about taking advantage of getting to decide the cuteness as long as I can until the kiddo gets to be in charge of what he/she will dress up as.

As for us, we're staying pretty low-key for Halloween this year. We have some candy on the off chance we get trick or treaters (we didn't get any last year so I'm not getting my hopes up, but I had to have candy just in case! And also because baby likes chocolate. Clearly).

I don't think I've dressed up for Halloween since law school - though funny enough it was at this time of year that B and I started dating during my last year of law school (though of course there's some friendly disagreement about actual dates and such...). But to me, after nearly 2 years of marriage, 5 years of being together, and 3 months away from becoming parents, I know that there's no other person I'd rather be going through life with. Looking forward to some relaxing and cozy time on the couch tonight!

Hope all of you who are out trick or treating (or going to Halloween parties) have a wonderful (and safe!) evening. And to all of those affected by Sandy on the East Coast, I'm hoping you're safe, dry and warm as well.

(And next year I promise to have cute Halloween baby pictures to post!)

Monday, October 29, 2012

Nursery progress

We hung up the curtains this weekend! 

Why yes, I do look lovely in this photo, don't I? This is how excited I am about the curtains (and how the nursery is coming together) that I'm willing to post this photo. Also yoga pants are my weekend outfit staple. No, I haven't done yoga once since I've gotten pregnant, why do you ask?

In case I haven't already mentioned it, the baby's room is tiny. As in, our place works great for a couple or a family with a baby, but I cannot imagine two unrelated people trying to live here as roommates. Someone would have definitely lost the coin toss to get stuck in this room. To give you a little perspective, the crib is up against one wall and you can just barely see the edge of the bookcase against the opposite wall (next to me, on the right side of the picture). The closet is in the wall opposite the windows. Next to the bookcase (between it and the closet) is the dresser we got which is where we'll put the changing pad.

But, truly, the room really does work perfectly for a baby. Sure, things are a bit tight, but it fits everything that we need it to, and Cody has plenty of room to sleep on the floor while I'm cozied up in the rocking chair. So everyone's happy!

My favorite part about the curtains is how perfectly they work with the room. You can't see the rug or the dresser in this picture, but the rug is a deep teal color and the dresser is red, so the curtains tie the colors together really nicely. I had originally planned on going with much more neutral curtains, but these just seem so much brighter and happier for a baby's room (and like so many other things in this kiddo's room, they're from Ikea). And I like these colors for either a boy or a girl, so I'm really happy with how this has come together.

And yes, we can pull the crib out away from the wall so baby can't grab the curtains. But I'm pretty sure baby is going to be in our room for the first few weeks anyway, so I haven't worried about that yet.

Anyway, whenever we're closer to done I'll post more pictures, but I wanted to share a little of what we've done so far. 

Friday, October 26, 2012

Current Events

I know that my posting schedule is all wonky (ha, schedule! That implies that I actually am able to write here more than once or twice a week). I hope to get better about that, but I'm pretty sure that for the moment I'll just continue to write when inspiration strikes. 

My point though, is that when I do post on Fridays, I like to keep things a bit lighter. I mean, it's Friday! It's almost the weekend! Gotta get down on Fridays and all that (and apologies for now getting that stuck in your heads, but blame my co-worker for doing it to me).

But today there's something else I want to talk about. Specifically, what in the name of all that is holy is going on in the world? I used to be somewhat of a news junkie, and political news in particular. I majored in politics in college and I'm fascinated by the behind-the-scenes aspects of campaigns. And beyond politics, I've always been a person who wanted to know what was going on at all times. I just liked knowing what was going on and couldn't understand those who purposefully kept themselves in the dark about current events.

But lately, I think I get it. I just can't handle watching the news anymore. MSNBC (though I guess now it's used to be my homepage. Not anymore. About the only news I can handle on a regular basis is the half hour of the Today Show that I watch while eating breakfast and the Daily Show that I watch in the evening. There just seems to be so much tragedy in the world - whether it's children being abducted and killed, countries at war with each other, people blowing each other up, stabbings happening in neighborhoods where either myself or my husband work during the day... I seriously cannot take it anymore. 

I'm pretty sure a big part of it has to do with being pregnant and thinking about this new life and the world that this baby will be born into. And I'm also pretty sure that my desire for news avoidance will only grow stronger once this baby is actually in the world (I'm also pretty sure that at least for the first several weeks after the baby is born I won't know which way is up, let alone what's actually going on in the world...). I know that we don't live in a world that is rainbows and sunshine all the time. Bad shit happens. I get that. But is it just me, or is more bad shit happening now? Or are we just more aware of it because of the 24 hour news world we live in thanks to cable news outlets? I don't want to bury my head in the sand, and so I do try to pay attention to some stories, but when all I hear is doom and gloom my reaction now is to pull the blanket over my head to shut it all out and hold my family even closer. Which may not be the most helpful reaction, but I think it's what I need to do for my sanity now.

Anyone else been going through this? Did you ever start paying more attention to the news again or have you continued to tune out whatever you can?

Wednesday, October 24, 2012


I am less than a week away from the beginning of my third trimester. WTF? When did that happen? How is it possible that I'm 27 1/2 weeks (nearly 7 months pregnant!). No wonder I feel like baby is taking over.

In all seriousness, I'm still feeling pretty good. I'm definitely starting to drag towards the end of the work day, and my evenings consist of eating dinner and stretching out on the couch with B and Cody. Not a whole lot of energy to do much else. But we are still plugging away at the nursery! We got the crib mattress last weekend, and we found the perfect curtains! I'm actually super excited about them. I had a different idea in mind for the curtains, but when we were at Ikea, B spotted a pattern that pulls together the colors from the rug and the dresser and just makes everything come together really nicely (if I do say so myself - I also got the Mom stamp of approval on them which felt great!). We've still got a few more things to do (like organize the bookshelves and hang some art work, along with actually hanging the curtains), but we're getting there! Hard to believe that it's only going to be a few more months (plus or minus a couple days in there) until there's a little person occupying that room!

Right now I'm mostly looking forward to the holidays. I'm really excited to see my sister over Christmas, and get some time to spend with the family over both Thanksgiving and Christmas. Plus while all of the details of my leave haven't been worked out fully, I am planning on working from home starting January 7. So I just have to get to Christmas and then it's a couple of short weeks and then working from home til baby decides to make an appearance! Getting those details figured out (and looking at the calendar and realizing just how few weeks are left in there) is really making the reality of the situation hit home for me. We're getting there!

And because I know you're curious - here's the 27 week belly shot. 

By the way - I feel the need to point out that I do wash our towels every week. But sometimes (usually) it's easier to take the clean ones straight from the dryer and hang them back up then switch them out with another set (yes I have a laundry routine, and yes, towels are usually the last to be washed, and yes, I'm usually really done with folding by that point!).

Friday, October 19, 2012

Decorating - or not

I've been noticing more and more blog posts about people decorating for Halloween, or fall in general and I'm pretty sure the Thanksgiving and (gasp!) Christmas decoration posts are not far behind. Which leads me to wonder - am I the only one who doesn't really do any seasonal decorating? 

I mean, we put up a tree at Christmas and hang lights, but that's about as far as my Christmas holiday decorating goes. And I really don't do anything for other holidays. In fact, the one time I really got into holiday decor was my freshman year in college. My roommate or I got a care package from one of our families right before Halloween and it had some cut-out ghosts that we decided to hang up on one of our (huge) bulletin boards. Then, we ended up with some holiday lights, and more decorations for Christmas, and basically decided to just keep adding to the decorations but never take anything down even after the holiday was over. So by the time our freshman year was over we had such a hodgepodge of things in that room from the Halloween ghosts that started it all to random Easter bunnies and blinking Christmas lights. It cracked us both up which is why we did it, but it's certainly not a tradition I wanted to continue as I got older!

Sometimes I think that the somewhat transient lifestyle that B and I have had the past few years probably contributes to it, given that we were moving every year (or less) for far too long. But I think it's more that as happy as decorating makes other people, it just stresses me out. I mean, having to figure out what you want to do and then going and buying supplies and then having to store them somewhere when you take them all down? No thanks. It's just not me. And at the ripe old age of 31, I think I'm learning that that's ok.

Plus, I'm pretty sure once we have a kiddo that's in school we'll find ourselves with all kinds of random things to decorate the house with!

Where do you land on the seasonal decorating spectrum?

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Boy or Girl?

We decided pretty early on that we wouldn't find out the gender of this baby (though I stayed wishy-washy on that decision for a while until finally deciding that I was on board), but I have to say that ultimately I've loved that we decided not to find out! Sure, it would be easier to plan exactly what we might do in terms of names for the kiddo or clothes or any number of things, but it's been surprising to me how much I've enjoyed getting to know the kicks and quirks of this kiddo without relating it to being a boy or a girl. And there's plenty of time for clothes shopping after this one makes its appearance!

Of course, this hasn't stopped either B or me from doing a lot of guessing about what we think this baby is - plus with all of the old wives' tales out there, it's too much fun not to try to figure out if this little alien is a boy or a girl. (As an aside - I realize that all of these "tests" are pretty much a coin flip. But it's still fun!)

Out of the couple of gender "tests" that I looked at before writing this post, it seemed like most pointed to our little alien being a girl (and honestly, that's been the gut feeling that both B and I have had the longest). But then when I posted my 26 week picture on twitter basically everyone called boy as their guess due to how I'm carrying. So, I wanted to try to find a couple more old wives' tales to see if there was any more clarity on what we think this baby will be...

Chinese gender prediction chart (I used this one): Girl!

Mayan gender prediction (apparently you use your age and the year at time of conception - if both are even/odd then it's a girl, if one is even and the other odd, it's a boy): Girl!

Heart rate (faster than 140 bpm - girl, slower - boy): Girl!

Craving sweets or salty/sour things (sweets - girl, salty/sour - boy): Girl! (Yes! All of your peppermint patties belong to me!)

Carrying round/in front: Boy!

"Stealing your beauty" (yes - girl, no - boy): Boy! (at least, I haven't noticed any uptick in acne or anything else...)

Morning sickness (yes - girl, no - boy): Boy (I think? I had some nausea during my first trimester, but never threw up, so we'll say boy)

So, just going by these we're at 4 pointing toward girl and 3 for boy. Clearly we won't know until the kid comes, but I'm amused that we can't even get a consensus from these! Did any of you have better luck with some of these old wives' tales?

Monday, October 15, 2012

Pregnancy Fashion*

So yeah, there's totally an asterisk in the title because, ha! Have you met me? I am probably one of the least fashionable people you'll meet. I mean, sure I try to put outfits together that I think look good on me, but I don't keep up with trends (I have never owned a pair of skinny jeans), and I certainly don't spend a lot of money on clothes (um, the only reason that I've been buying clothes recently is because a certain bump is no longer covered by the majority of shirts that I owned. Which is a problem. Because no way do I want any part of this belly being bared sans clothing). 

Before I got pregnant, my usual outfit was a pair of jeans and some sort of nice top (or a tank top with a sweater). It's been my go-to outfit for years as it's comfy and looks nice. Plus, I live in Seattle, land of wear whatever's comfortable because it's going to be covered up by a rain coat 9 months of the year anyway (though did you know that we recently had 81 straight days of no rain? That's amazing for Seattle!).

15 weeks - fairly normal outfit for me (and what I would have worn prior to getting pregnant), consisting of a non-maternity Old Navy tank top and a skirt.

And so far, what I've found has worked the best during this pregnancy so far seems to be more of the same - jeans and a nice top. My non-maternity tanks worked great up until about 17 weeks or so, and since then I've been loving Old Navy's maternity tank tops and jeans. Plus, they aren't that expensive and I can usually find a coupon code (though I swear I always get a better coupon or email for a bigger discount right after I've ordered something. Oh well.), so I don't feel quite so guilty about having to buy new clothes. Even though as noted above, growing belly doesn't give me a whole lot of options in the needing new clothes department.

24 weeks - Old Navy maternity tank and jeans! I do wear other shirts besides tank tops, I promise, but all of my weekly belly shots are in tanks to try to keep things sort of standard, and those pictures are what I have access to right now.

Now, I recognize that right off the bat I'm a pretty lucky lady in that my job doesn't require super nice clothes. In fact, as I noted above, my usual wardrobe was jeans, nice shirt and probably a cardigan because I'm usually freezing. Occasionally I mix it up by throwing a skirt on, but that's pretty rare. I like my jeans. Luckily, this has made transitioning into maternity clothes fairly easy and painless so far - buy a few pairs of maternity jeans, add several maternity tops, use my pre-pregnancy cardigans (who needs to button those? I really just want the sleeves!), and now that we're moving into fall, throw on a scarf and I'm a happy camper. 

26 weeks! (aka this week!) Also - stripes!

The one pregnancy fashion element that I've totally fallen in love with though? Stripes! I have always shied away from horizontal stripes thinking that they just make me look fat and wider than I am. But I'm loving striped shirts now that I'm pregnant! I don't know if it's because it accentuated the bump prior to really feeling like I had one, or if I just don't care, but I think stripes are great. I also probably like the stripes more because I tend to shy away from prints in general, so the stripes are a fun addition to an otherwise fairly solid color selection of shirts. 

So, that's what I've been wearing so far. As it gets colder I'm probably going to have to add more layers, but hopefully I'll be able to get through the rest of this pregnancy without have to buy too many more things. Because let's face it - baby clothes are way cuter!

(And in searching for pictures for this post I'm realizing just how rarely B and I take photos of each other anymore... Pretty sure we need to get out more and rectify that situation before all we're doing is taking pictures of our baby!)

Friday, October 12, 2012

Ready for the weekend

This week has been a bit odd - mainly because it's gone by so quickly!

It doesn't feel like there was any real reason for that, though I imagine B starting his new job on Wednesday and the associated figuring out a new commuting routine (his office is fairly close to mine downtown so we can drive together right now! Loving it!) makes the days go by faster. 

What it has made me realize though, is just how quickly this pregnancy has been going recently. The first few weeks as we waited to get to the 12 week mark felt like they went by sooooo slowly. There was the worry in the back of my head about what if something goes wrong, plus I didn't feel fantastic (and I was SO tired!). We also didn't start buying anything or even doing much research into the various items that we thought we might want to get until I was into my second trimester (see the tiredness above). But since we started telling people (including finally getting to tell my work when I was around 17 weeks), I feel like the weeks have started flying by. We're nearly at the end of 25 weeks, which means 14 more to go! (um, and also? That means I'm nearly in my third trimester. That is mindblowing to me. How am I almost in my third trimester already??)

On the plus side, I'm feeling really good about our level of preparedness. At least in terms of what we're planning on doing/getting in the next couple of months. But then I occasionally have visions of bringing baby home to a crib that still doesn't have a mattress, let alone any sheets! So maybe we'll want to take care of getting the mattress sooner rather than later... uh, and also a car seat so we can actually bring baby home...

I still haven't solidified my maternity leave plans (yup, need to get on that), but as I was looking at the calendar yesterday I realized that I'll be 38 weeks in January after the holidays are over. I'm hoping to be able to take off the few days after Christmas (so just take that week off essentially, as our office is closed both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day), then work the short week after New Year's in the office and then starting the next week work from home until baby decides to make an appearance (all of this is assuming that baby hasn't decided to show up early!). This feels like a good balance to me of taking care of work needs as well as realizing that I'm probably not going to want to continue going into the office every day if I can help it. We'll see how my boss likes that plan...

And in the meantime, I'm just really glad that it's almost the weekend. The weather has appeared to turn from the beautiful sunny fall back to rainy and cold which means it's the perfect time to curl up on the couch with B and Cody. And some football.
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